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01 Saturday Dec 2012
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in23 Friday Nov 2012
Posted Hisstory Herstory
in“Where do you find love? If we knew, we would all know where to look. Sometimes all you need is a sign.”
I know this posting would sound so pinky. Just blame it on the rain that keeps pouring down these days. Somehow it creates that melancholic feeling hehe π So, i have made myself clear, uhmm…that this is not because i am having that kinda pink feeling (again), no, not yet π
I know i’ve been too bluntly in expressing anything regarding my feeling. I am like an open book, sometimes, i must say. But i value myself for that as not all the people (i know) have the courage to be honest with their own feeling. I’m not judging either hehe π
So! I found myself watching so many short movies today. And this one…
In search for the right one, we all need signs to convince ourselves. You decide and take the pick coz you think you have enough reasons either to start, to continue, to leave or to give up. But sometimes what you thought as the sign was just merely an inevitable false alarm. Olrait, everybody makes mistake. That’s totally owkay to make mistake, decide the wrong decision, coz we do not have knowledge in every way. When you made mistake, you created room for yourself to learn. That’s a good point, dont you think? π
And this is what i also learned : That you should not look down upon yourself for any of your missinterpreted signs that led you to a wrong decision, sad story, any of it π
I must admit that i’ve been living my life without me these days hehe π (over reacted ^%$#^%@) ## :-p !! i know haha ) and i miss the old me ! But i am on my way to get back the old me! I have to change to stay the same π
I never see myself that high not untill some of my best friends hit me with their statements. Oopps not mean to be that arrogant!Β Well, they said things that i never see myself like that. I am just so so… that’s me, i think. And i let my recent problem to let me down. But those guys value myself more than i did, i think π I was flattered when they said quite similar things about me: that i have value, that i shall not be pathetic, that i’m precious so i shall behave like one. I hope they were telling the truth, not just such soothing words hehe π Still, knowing those things from the men you least expected than from that one person you most expected is way heartwrenching haha (teteup!) π
But yeah, troubles sometimes knock you down and makes you less appreciate yourself. Keep blaming yourself is never be good. Coz in a room for two, everything is mutual, one’s behaviour leads to another one’s reaction, one’s action leads to another one’s decision. In a room for two, both have role either for good or bad. That’s how the universe work to create balance…
So, it’s owkay to make mistake as long as you learn from it π I learned and i wish to change any of bad traits i have. And one thing i should note down that everybody deserves the second chance but not for the same mistake. So, let me find another signs π
16 Friday Nov 2012
Last nite over a short conversation with a friend, he said he like our pic which was taken in the Carnisselande. That was the picture taken after our thesis submission, so no wonder everybody look so happy on that pic. I told him i grabbed it from a friend’s facebook album π Yeah, yesterday after fulfilling my promises to some friends on writing, i had nothing else to do. The weather was so cold and i had this fever, so i’d rather stay at home, kept my body warm and went from one’s photo album to another photo album on facebook, recalling the memories. I found my picture standing on the thick snow covering the bicycle path in front of our apartment, only wearing a socks and slippers, pajamas trousers and a jumper, i believe that was around minus 11 degrees :-p But that happy feeling made the frozen snow feels like nothing π I also found some funny pictures on potlucks we’ve held during that one year. So many potlucks, either to celebrate birthdays, the holidays or to celebrate the paper submissions π
We really had such a great time, great friends and great pictures. I must say some friends are Β really good at capturing moments regardless what tools they used, either cellphone camera, pocket camera or that sophisticated DSLR. Yet, some made less use of their DSLR camera and produce blurry, a dunno which was the focal point and the main object on their frames haha π Well, that’s true: it’s not the tool, but the resource who use it π
I like those pictures of autumn, spring and winter the most, for their particular color… Each season comes with its beauty and stories to remember.
The crisp autumn…
We started our one year journey when autumn was around the corner and ended that journey when autumn was greeting us for the second time. A big celebration on our graduation day was held at the Staadhuis, on the second day of the second autumn, continued with a cruise party along the Nieuw Maas river. As a farewell to the 4 seasons, as the farewell to that cold windy city, as the farewell to everybody. Final goodbye? I cant say π Coz some of us are on their way to get back to that memorable city. It’s not goodbye untill the next hello π
The first autumn, 2010…
I recall it with an image of a girl who tried really hard to ride her bicycle. Yeah, i dunno how to ride a bicycle, not untill i was pushed to ride it on daily basis, from Weena to Woudestein. It’s so relieving to know that you’re surrounded by great friends so you can get over your own fear and finally brave enough to be on that bicycle path together with the Dutch who are genetically inherit the ability to ride their bicycle even with eyes closed and hands typing mobile messages π I was guarded by very nice friends. They Β always let me to be in the middle of our bicycle row, some guided me in the front and others watched over me from my back haha π There’s no more such soothing feeling than the feeling of carings π
Friendship and togetherness, a valuable one. That’s the first thing autumn taught me about!
Autumn, it’s time when you can still put on your colorfull cardigan and sneakers all around before winter urges you to put on thermal underwear, wear layers of thick clothes, the UGG winter boots (i wore le coq sportif boots anyway :-p)Β and black grey color dominate the crowds. Autumn was also the times when i hop off in Keizerstraat and ran to Β an olliebollen stall next to H&M or in front of Pathe..
Autumn, the weather is getting colder, the nites are getting longer, the sun slowly dissapearing and home is six hours ahead than home far away from home. Autumn, it’s romantic but it’s also about letting go whatever happened and grew from spring to summer. See how the green leaves turn into red, yellow…wilt and then fall from the trees. No more spring color left nor the dandellion dust swept by the summer wind. Sad and melancholic it was, untill everything gets frozen by the cold winter. But then another life, another hope will grow from the deep earth.
Autumn is like a long pause to give ourselves enough time for reflections and for questioning ourselves. a long pause to give ourself enough time to go deep into ourselves. Autumn is a solitude we give ourselves from crowds we’ve created inside us, from changes that might take place, from things that remains still. A solitude that one needs to release the grief, a solitude that one needs Β to cherish the happiness. And finally, next, a courage to move on…
Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them, that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like (Lao-Tzu)
Wishing you all a magical autumn in your heart….
28 Sunday Oct 2012
Posted Short Cake
inA satellite has no conscience**
Presume satellite happens to have conscience, it would probably leave its primary and make itself another primary.
Presume satellite happens to have conscience, it would stop orbits the planet or might be simply collide it.
Presume satellite happens to have conscience, it might feel exhausted and envy the primary for being the center of itself while it’s just a little thing keeps going round and lost it’s own way. Just a shade, then faded…
Well, it’s a marvelous night for a MoondanceΒ
With the stars up above in your eyesΒ
A fantabulous night to make romanceΒ
‘Neath the cover of October skiesΒ
And all the leaves on the trees are fallingΒ
To the sound of the breezes that blowΒ
And I’m trying to please to the callingΒ
Of your heart-strings that play soft and lowΒ
And all the night’s magic seems to whisper and hushΒ
And all the soft moonlight seems to shine in your blush
Just a gaze to myself after watching august rush for hundreds time and days are still having the october sky π
** Edward R. Murrow, an American Journalist, 1908-1965).
20 Saturday Oct 2012
Posted Hisstory Herstory
in“You have an excellent life! Count your blessings!” that’s what Henk told me the other day. Well, he’s so damn right… I should count my blessing instead of complaining on how life sometimes treats me way hard and knocks me down with pain.Β Well, we cannot avoid pain, but we can chose to overcome it.
And i chose to be sent to another school. As i recall, school is the best healing place from any pain though school itself inevitably creates pain haha π Yup, school gives you a lot to learn, homework and assignment, meeting new people with various traits. And those somehow are also pains! Growing pains hehe π
The point is school distracts your mind from any other issues that you desperately want to get rid of, perhaps unpleasant office environment, a failed relationship or just a nonsense boredom. School keeps you busy learning new things and it helps fixing the inside you π
I’ve been away for week, for school. Let’s say it’s a Leadership School for Government Officer. I was like a bumble bee kept buzzing asking whether my boss would send me to school this term or not coz i really need it. Besides, next Β year they will lengthen the period of the school, which i think would ruin my another next year plan (FYI, well-organized and well-planned are my middle name. I have double masters on Planning issue, that explains :-p).
First week was quite tough (me starring at the blue purplish bruises on my legs and hands). Two of my colleagues were sent to the hospitals and got hospitalized. School is a way too exhausted for them. Well, being physically tired is so much nicer than mentally tired, don’t you think ? let alone the illnesses.
Yet, most of the time i’m enjoying my new school, new friends, new dormitory and new experience. I barely had time to facebooking :-p Though sometimes i still able to put favorite flags on the tweets i read or upload pics on my instagram. Everything at school are timed! Well, it’s mixed the military aspects and government aspect. No phone call or texting during meal time, exercising at 5.00 am sharp, and class starts early in the morning, roll call twice a day, and the activities end at 9.00 pm or something… Pfuhhhh absolutely a great place to distract your mind from things you should no longer worry about π
Since i’am the youngest in class, i got a new nick now π The lecturers and friends call me “De’ Ary” haha π Olrait then π And the oldest colleagues have a very long experience in government service. I tell you, they have started their carreer in government 3 years before i was born!
What i love the most during first week is the outbond activity! We went to the National Park of Mount Gede Pangrango, and the lake of Situgunung. I love it ! I dared myself to try every game the Rakata (http://www.visitsukabumi.com/places-to-go/nature-tourism/189-wisata-camping-ground.html) had for us. That was my first time trying sky bridge π It’s like walking in the air! I walked on the bridge that only made by some pieces of woods that tighten together with a sling. I had to hold on to 2 pieces of sling on my right and lef hands. Every time i moved on, the bridge started to shake. Geezz, it really scared me, walking on the bridge that keep shaking so high above the ground!! The woods itself only 15-20 cm wide, what if i miss-stepped to the edge of that piece of wood? I’d fall and hung deep in the forest surely!! I tried to focus, kicked away my fear, motivated myself and keep my body balance at one time, pfuuuhhhh hahaha π Adrenalin so it was you !! And then i also tried flying fox (that was my second time). Pssstttt, my chaperone told me that i have a very loud chrystal clear voice when i screamed hehehe π
And so i also fall for the tranquilty of Situgunung lake. I dunno… But when the mist came and then rain broke the silence of the lake… I just love it π Under my red rain coat i could feel that the feeling was so delicate that i could cry… hehe π Well, i love rain π
On the way back to the dormitory, i received message from a friend, a brother. Thanks to him and my persistent obdurate… The package finally reached the owner miles away. It really made my day coz by then i have fulfilled all my promises, it’s about promises, and i owe him nothing more… That’s so relieving… What would he do with everything i sent him shall not be my concern anymore. Remember rule #1, i can not avoid pain but i can chose to overcome it π
And so, i am writing back this blog… count the blessings like what Henk told me, and enjoy life as i know it… School is really is the best healing place, i still have month to go to enjoy it π
Owh, i still have some funny pics from the class π The story of swollen feet haha π
we have to wear those formal stilettos during class, but i was extremely tired so i had swollen feet :-p and the chaperone let me put in my skechers hehe π
hehehe π we, sundanesse called that small bench “jojodog” π if i tried to help my swollen feet by put in to my skechers, a friends has this jojodog with her to relieve the pain of swollen feet π
PS:
If you had activities in the forest, wear no perfume or any delicate fragrant! otherwise you’ll be busy avoiding the bees that like your sweet fragrance π haha, i screamed a lot the other day coz the bees keep buzzing and flying surrounding my body !
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02 Thursday Aug 2012
Posted Home Far Away From Home
inI know what’s on your mind! Haha π I cant believe it either: that i still have access to this radio WEENA 53 FM but i do still have π
Thanks to facebook pop up information that, out of nowhere, suddenly showed up my past events. This radio, this event, was started at April 1, 2011 at 11:00pm until August 1, 2011 at 12:00am. So, it’s exactly a year ago! How i miss this crazy time upon thesis hard time!
I stared on what i had on myLCD, and smile like an idiot reading every past post on the radio haha π Really, this was hilarious, seeing how we needed distraction from thesis what so called :-p
The disclaimer (or it supposed to be disclaimer but it’s not :-p ), written as DISKRIMER π Anyone who was Weena listener might still be familiar with these:
Diskrimer:
Hak cinta dan pelampiasannya dalam siaran ini DILINDUNGI UNDANG-UNDANG….
Heizzz.. those sentence were so Opung RX, the elderly in our student community and was the Director of Weena 53 fm radio π But compliment ! He was so damn creative in getting rid of our (me only, well perhaps) boredom. Well, those who’re lucky for not yet having a chance dealing with thesis writing might have no idea that thesis could trigger an accute boredom :-p It sometimes was bored to death (again, perhaps me only).
And then the Radio tagline was :
Well well, we had that kinda radio announcers too π Om Beruang aired the (what was that?) kinda hard rock, metal, punk, underground (sounds like metro hehe) programs. Me myself rarely tuned in the station when he aired the program. Unless he mentioned my name, well that doesn’t count since.. i just didnt get why those kinda music is called music :-p They were just too loud to my ear hehe π Anyway, thanks Om for kicking away the boredom out of my study room :-p
And then Yoan, haha π What should i say? Mwahahaha :)) He aired the special program when everybody was deep into their thesis or, frankly speaking, fell asleep π Still it’s good to check the radio when you woke up from a late night sleep and found “owh Yoan is “yawning” these songs and had no listener” π
I’d say the real announcer was mas Dian since he aired the program on air ! yup, some of Weenapadians (those who stayed in Weenapad student apartment) were also radio technician found a free host web for our radio! Creativity, i’d say π They link the free host radio page to skype, which enabled us to finally hear the announcer’s voice, the song and request the songs on air! It was a Yaaaiyyy ! π And we also had chat boxΒ So, either we talked to the announcer or simply chat to one another, silly jokes, silly nicknames π
Well, it was such fun that i could also turn of my boom box and left the Netherland’s famous real radio stations such as Sky fm (i never write you a love song la la la laaa), Classic fm, Arrow Jazz fm; those i listened the most during my stay in NL. Well i know that my line of music is cheesy, but i’d listen to melodies that brings comfort to my ears :-p
Nearly August at that time, everybody went back to their main business : thesis writing. Busy preparing for defense and coming home. And Weena 53 fm radio was officially ended up its program on August the 1st. It was also on the holy Ramadhan, i guess. Exactly a year ago π
The last post was from OmBeruang, announcing photo hunting (ngabuburit as well!):
and we got this picture that afternoon π
Mas Deva took this picture when we’re biking through kralingen lake. I miss that bike, my Classy π
And then everybody really was busy with their own, untill we bid farewel and came back to the homeland..
And so listen to the radio, and all the songs we used to know la la laaa….